rental

we moved to a new house.
we figured since we're gonna be here for awhile, we'd make a fresh del rio start and move off base.

so far, its awesome. i'm so excited to see del rio and live pilot training from the other side.

the house is really starting to come together, and as the husband says "it looks like a grown-up house" lol

pics to come soon ... fingers crossed ;)

loss

we are no longer expecting.

after a few long and stressful days, i am finally able to say it out loud. and although, at times, it may only be to myself ... its a lot to handle. even if i wasn't progressed too far, i was still excited. and though there was nothing much too lose, i am still at a loss.

in a way i feel guilty. like i tried too soon. celebrated too soon. shared the news too soon. got excited too soon.

but at the same time i know it wasn't my doing. there was nothing i could have done to prevented it. everything happens for a reason. the lord works in mysterious ways.

and i hope and pray that i am able to give miss heidi a brother or a sister someday.

its amazing how something so small, can wreck you. turn your life upside down. make you wonder.

the world goes on. days pass by. life keeps living.

all in all, i think i'm handling it well. i have an amazing, healthy, beautiful, intelligent daughter that i am MORE than thankful for. i am already tremendously blessed. and i could someday make another person even half as awesome as her i would be so lucky.

and beyond having a great kid, i have a husband who despite being anti-affectionate, hugged me and kissed me, told me that he loved me and that everything was gonna be ok.

what more could i ask for? :)